Meditation

I went to a meditation class last night and it was horrible but I’m going to try to go again, except not next week because I’m going to see the Indigo Girls then.

Meditating is painful. I went in feeling fine and then five seconds in I had this crushing neck pain from my big bowling ball pumpkin head. There’s something about trying to pay attention that makes me feel sucky.

It’s like the pain I’ve been dissociating from and numbing with food, Woodoku, reality TV, etc. all crashes down on me full force. It’s almost unbearable.

Also there was a fly that kept buzzing my face like I was Ed Harris in a control tower trying to drink coffee while Maverick whizzed by me in his fighter jet.